Online Sex Work as Recreation
I have found that webcam modeling and creating custom content for clients has enhanced my life. Having a new and interestingly varied sexual outlet has made me feel more confident, sexier and happier in general. This is a side-effect of doing this work that I never expected to experience. Even though the relationships that I engage in with clients are purely transactional, they are still rewarding. It is so validating when someone reaches out with a supportive comment about my body or my brain (both have happened.) I have a request pending for a custom video that I am planning to do, and found my thoughts drifting toward it all day. It was a little hard to focus on my dayjob, but feeling this sense of anticipation heightens the excitement. In a sense, my lifelong dream of being a courtesan is in part coming true. I am able to act out my fantasies and engage in them on my own terms with full control and consent.